Monday, February 16, 2009
the last week before practicum. i'll be thrown into the deep in next week and i don't know how i will fare. haha. all the teaching experiences in ctss, tss, and nus, will they count for anything? haha the excellent tutor award from nus, does it have any bearing? haha. all i know is that, the path is laid down before me and i have to walk.
i'd be lying to myself if i were to say that the passion for teaching still runs deep inside me. ask me that during my masters year and i'll tell u that for sure i want to be a teacher. but somehow, something inside me has changed. maybe it's that one year of conducting tutorials for engine students. maybe i burnt out then.
or maybe it was the army. maybe it was cos i felt the immense satisfaction of training a first class team, bonding and then achieving excellence with them. maybe i felt purposeful in my actions. maybe i felt appreciated.
i dunno what it is, but as with all things, i approach it with a rather deontological mindest. i've committed myself to it and thus will do the best that i can in it. i guess that is the best commitment i can provide now. i guess maybe the army hypothesis is right. the more i think about it, the more i want to assume a more leadership role. one where i get to lead a team. i certainly hope i'll education will offer that to me in the time to come.
the passion for teaching i have lost. but the overwhelming desire to do the best i can in it is still there. i guess it sort of compensates for it, and can probably serve as a substitute till i find my fix. i'll find it someday. i just hope its soon. lol.
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Sunday, February 01, 2009
posting results are out and i'm not too sure if i am happy with them. oh well. we'll see what happens. =)
i have decided to start training for stan chart now. hope to achieve a far superior timing compared to last year's. haha. gonna start running on saturdays with daquan and hopefully throw in some runs weekdays. will prob get myself a pair of lunars as well.
going to start trading as well. think its time i started to dabble in it. not to worry ya all.
charlie bty is ording next week. well most of them. so that means that the posting orders shld be out soon. frankly at this stage, i dont really care if i am the gpo or the bc. what really matters is that i'm still in 289 charlie bty and that my crew contain alfred francis daquan and fred. can liao. hopefully we will be going nz during the 7th incamp for fatep! =)
driving test on the 17th of march. hope i will nail it with one attempt. haha i know i can do it. haha.
anyway, been a little down lately. maybe because i've been thinking too much about my future role as a teacher. haha. had a little chat with limin over msn abt it. hope things change. maybe i'll blog abt it in the future. haha.
suppose to go kelvin's house to bai nian this week with yaoqi. donno when.
had a math class outing with the chem girls and yanxiang at cynthia's house. haha wii is an extremely fun thing to have at parties. haha. might get one for mom for her bdae haha let her have some fun. haha.
ah well. time to go do some work. take care ya all.
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