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Friday, January 26, 2007

today i made a terrible decision. i decided to stop studying for korean. with everything that's been happening to me, i need to really focus all my attention on my thesis and my own mental sanity.

i feel as if i've let many people down. but most importantly, i feel as if i have let myself down, because i've given up. what a terrible way to do things. to give up. no honour, no respect.

i just hope that things will get better. phew! i certainly hope so.

had an interesting chat with jialiang in the consultation room today. haha. he was trying so hard to speak in english. haha. learnt quite a bit about chinese history from him. haha. i realise he's a pretty nice guy with no airs and certainly not very opinionated. basically just a good friend to chill with. haven't spoken to him much though.

let me try a message my korean classmate sent me when i told her i was dropping out. she's the 아줌마 (auntie) of the class. haha.
"Uncle how can u abandon us!? You are our pillar of strength and the only 'flower' in the midst of all the thorns leh... so heartless lor! No nam ja hak saeng, our dear eb wil no longer be able to hold her firey temper liao! Can u imagine the flaming fire coming our of her nose? U serious quitting at this stage? Complete lvl 2 lah... another 3 more su oup to go only."

haha. even though i felt terrible today, this sms brought a smile to my face. haha. it feels great to have a friend like her. haha. i'm lucky i have friends who are truely friends not just in name, but in action as well. there are people who willingly call you their friends but only look for you when they need u. these people i shall not be bothered with.

anyway i'm going to get some shut eye!

{10:35 PM}

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