Thursday, November 23, 2006
some people are just plain bastards!!anyway. haha. i've decided. i shall cut my hair on saturday morning. that way, if i don't do well for my exams, i can blame it on superstition! haha!
i wore this shirt to school today and everyone commented that i did not look like myself. haha. do i really look like a walking advertisement for adidas nowadays? haha anyway my sister bought this shirt for me. I have to say i like it quite a bit. haha.
curious georgehaha i spend about 4 hours in the lab with lang and en today. we were going through some of the questions form herstein. haha. lang's really a dedicated teacher. he stayed back till 9 today. and even came over just before he left to ask me if i had any other questions and to tell me he was going. haha. my ou xiang! haha next sem when i teach i will be like that!!!! haha!
today i was feeling all happy and good because i recieved yet another email from my student expressing his thanks. it feels really good to be appreciated. haha. i know i havent done all that i could have done this semester for them and part of me feel like i've let them down. so it's always good to have someone affirm your worth. haha.
today limin dropped by because she went to the optician at nus co-op. so i had a little chat with her. haha. hoinam dropped by as well. and boy. that certainly reminded me of the good old year 1 days. so relaxed and carefree. munching on a doughnut. skipping classes. sitting around chatting. not even panicing before the exam because i knew i would somehow make it. haha. and then i thought to myself. what's "wrong" with me now?
i think perhaps now, i'm surrounded by people who are high achievers. people who consistantly get As. People who come from illustrious universities. i guess the pressure is on me to match up. and sometimes i lose sight of the fact that i'm not them. haha. i'm just me. plain old me. so why should i live up to other people's standards?
i think i will go into the next few days with this attitude in mind. i've already done what i could for this semester. what will be is now out of my hands. it's not giving up, it's accepting fate and not being miserable because i'm predicting my own doom. for sure i will continue to press on, but certainly with a different mindset. one not about trying to be as good as everyone else, but rather one that says that i will simply try to be the best that i can be. haha.
i somehow figured that out while talking to herk. thx brudder.
{11:51 PM}
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