Tuesday, July 04, 2006
haha. i like my blog music! i personally think it's one of those pieces that when youre sad makes you feel suicidal and when your happy, it intensifies the joy. so right now you can guess i'm happy. or at least i'm not sad.
there is nothing exception that i'm happy about today. i just feel glad that i have dreams and aspirations that i may one day achieve. i like to sit back and imagine what it would be like if they all happened. i know some of them are by and large unachievable, but the whole idea about day dreaming is about visualising the apparent 'impossibilities' in life. it's always nice to think of what could have been and what could be, even though sometimes there isnt anything you can do about it. but i guess it sort of brings you out of reality for a while. in that instant, you see things you never saw before, and you learn a bit more about yourself as you go on. and the best part about day dreaming, is that in that very rare occasion that your dreams do in fact materialise themselves one day, the most profound sense of bliss would envelop your very soul. i'm sure everyone knows what i am talking about. inside, we all have something we hope will happen. something we know is very unlikely, but yet, exactly because it is unlikely and not impossible, do we bear a clinging sense of hope. and when it really happens, we acknoledge that we have not been silently bearing this hope for naught.
but i feel that it's only good to carry such hopes provided they do not hinder one's present life in any significantly detrimental way. our dreams should be dealt with like spare cash we use to gamble. the pool of money we set aside for gambling should already be taken as lost and gone. and any profit taken as a gain. some people dream but are afraid to admit that they may never achieve their goals. i guess to some extent this provides some with a 'never say die' attitude towards life. but in most cases, the negative aspect of being deluded and blinded by these dreams far superceed the apparent benefits.
anyway, supposed to have dinner with yinkoh this coming monday. havent seen her in like years. haha! glad she's returned to singapore for 'a long long time' however long that may be. haha! wore the toric lenses today. non disposable. it was good for a while. but my eyes are red now. i guess it takes time getting used to them, afterall, i've been used to the thinner more oyygenated disposable lenses. but i think i look horrendous without spectacles anyway so i should be getting a nice pair instead of the lenses. time to update my budget plan. too bad i will have to wear lenses this commencement since my current pair (glasses) has some part of the paint scraped off. or maybe i will wear glasses, if my eyebags dont subside then i guess i'll have no choice but to wear glasses!
gosh my eyes are soooo tired. time to give them some rest. au revoir!
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