Thursday, March 30, 2006
hmm when i feel stressed or unhappy, i like to listen to kings of convenience. so here's one song now.Cayman Islands
Through the alleyways
to cool off in the shadows
then into the street
following the water
there's a bearded man
paddling in his canoe
looks as if he has
come all the way from the cayman islands
these canals, it seems,
they all go in circles
places look the same,
and we're the only difference
the wind is in your hair,
it's covering my view, I'm
holding on to you,
on a bike we've hired until tomorrow
if only they could see,
if only they had been here
they would understand,
how someone could have chosen
to go the length I've gone,
to spend just one day riding
holding on to you,
I never thought it would be this clear
haha! there so much better. the sound of their voices is so rejuvenating.
today i went out to run some errands. took 61 back home. on the way, i noticed something quite well, for lack of a better word, interesting. 3 jc students, 2 guys 1 girl. first guy says to girl "let's go sit down" pointing towards a vacant 2 seater. girl immediately sits down on the empty seat in front of me, beside a sleeping man. the guy looks shocked and points to the empty seats behind and says "there are empty seats over there". the girl remains seated and says "it's just a short ride". guy sighs a very heavy sigh and turns around to sit on an empty seat diagonally infront of the girl with an old lady sitting to his left and a younger woman behind him. "must have been some spat between them" i thought to myself. for the next 10 minutes or so, the girl kept glancing in the direction of the first guy who never once looked back. then the ladies beside and behind the guy alighted and the guy moved to the seat next to the window, leaving the seat beside him and the one behind that empty. their thrid friend opts to sit down at the seat behind but the girl insists he sits with the other guy and she moves over to the seat behind. now diagonally behind the guy, she still glances over for a while, but his face is practically plastered to the window staring outwards. she gives up eventually and takes out her econs notes to study. and i alighted shortly after.
i guess i will never really know what went on, but it's useful to think of this anagolously. this past week, i've been feeling rather cold for some reason or another. i felt as if i've grown awfully weary of certain social situations and efforts to do anything remotely friendly with SOME people have been rather draining. so i decided that i shall not initiate anything at all, if not out of pure childishness, then simply to give myself space to breathe. but like the girl on the bus, trying to be aloof has its risks. i guess it wouldnt be too much to assume that the girl did not really want to sit seperately from the guy in the first place, but was just trying to vent her frustrations of the situation on him hoping to win an apology or something of that sort. but instead of recieving her aims, she's left high and dry, with not even a glance back from the guy. the same thing applies in this case. it takes 2 people to maintain any sort of social relationship, be it a friendship or romance. it gets so awfully tring if only 1 person has to do all the work all the time. so is it really worth it to continue persevering even after u recieve no help from the other party? that's really a question that each individual can answer only for himself/herself. for me, i've decided that it's not worth the trouble anymore.
anyway, i've heard rumors that tkm may wanna "transfer" me to lst!! crossing my fingers. ha!
{9:31 PM}
1 Comments:
this is so uncanny but the book i'm reading now... the girls just went to cayman islands to investigate something. and i was like.. wah.. isn't tt the kings of convenience song?
