Thursday, February 23, 2006
sigh... logically i should have done logic... haha flipped thru some of the material.. and it seems interesting and i could actually do some of the qns in tut 3 even though i dun even noe wats being taught in the lectures... arrrggh... not that i'm not enjoying jap... i am... but learning a new lang is really time consuming... haha and i'm not really sure i have the motivation to really push forward...urrrghh... i have to really work hard for jap if i wanna even begin to enjoy classes more... haha whereas i would hafta prob spend less effort in trying to enjoy yang yue's lessons... haha i guess it's a matter of choosing the more tedious but rewarding route or the quick and easy path... haha...
its evenings like these... every sunday tuesday and thrusday evenings when i feel very tired and unmotivated cos another tutorial awaits me the very next morning... haha... i dun enjoy jap classes as much as i tot i would i guess probably cos i'm taking it alone... with no frends that is... and cos well... i'm probably one of the weaker ones in class... haha i guess i can fully understand y some people choose to take modules with frends rather than opt to choose modules they would prefer... haha i mean i've taken quite a few math modules by myself... and well those were ok... haha cos... i guess i dun really struggle that much... but picking up a new lang is really a totally different issue... and along with the rigidity of the japanese method of learning the language... it further heightens the pressure...
jamie asked me the other day if jap or french in nus was more fun... haha i told her.. i was not in a good position to make that assesment cos i took french with frends.. lots of them in fact... but now i feel... even if i had close frends rather than the aquaintances i've recently made in class... i would have still prefered french... haha i guess it's probably due to the method of teaching... haha i guess u would say it was a notch higher in the fun and relaxing department and one down in the stress factor bar...
but nevertheless... i've already made the choice to study jap... and i'm not gonna be abandoning it just cos i've now declared it as s/u... i mean... watever happens to me.. it's cos of a decision i made in the past and so i gotta live with it... haha i chose my own destiny in this case... so i shld really quit whining... but indulge me for a sec will ya... haha
anyway... talking abt whining... let me just write down my stand on an issue here... i try as best as i can not to complain about inefficiencies... from simple things like administrative slowdowns to traffic bottlenecks... i really try my best not to blame someone or something for the disarray... cos i feel that... its really unfair to anyone to just simply point a finger at someone and condemn the person to being cause of the earth's misfortunes... cos no matter how much u've seen or heard... one never really does have the full picture... dun u really hate it when u get blamed for something that was out of ur control or something that really wasnt ur fault? i noe i really hate that feeling... so why do we seek to do that unto others? so fine... maybe blaming the whole collective group of people seems like a good way to disperse the frustration... however... contrary to what most people think... i believe the net effect is equivalent to simply blaming every individual withing that group... sure some may argue that without such checks... it would be impossible for systems to progress and things to change for the better... but really... i think we've grown to a stage where we cannot even accept the smallest of inconveniences... i admit... i blame my taxi driver when i'm late... but i realise my flaw and i'm trying to change... haha we... as a nation... have to develop a more tolerant nature... somehow in our amazing development over the past few decades as a country... we've failed to inculcate in our young the concept of tolerance... tolerating something doesnt necessarily jsut mean lowing ur standards... it also means not making urself mad over trivial matters... learning to take in life in its entirety and embracing ever event in it... learing to accept that we dun live for others to serve us and that we are not the centre of the universe... learning that we are human afterall and that we make mistakes... think about it... everytime u stop to think about the horrible service u recieved u waste that time mulling over it... u waste the energy getting frustrated over it... u waste ur day which could have been a happee one... is it really worth it?
haha on a happee note... look at this... dementieva in a belgian choc factory... and wat is she holding? a box for clijsters... hahaha i wonder if the pic was taken intentionally or accidentally... hahaha ciao ya all...
{11:45 PM}
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