Saturday, November 19, 2005
hmm i can'r quite recall... but i did have something interesting to pen down... a pity i've forgotten... haha so u'll see it in due time i guess... haha... anyway i did a bit of studying today... and i realise one thing... after doing something frequently... one tends to settle into the swing of things and its pretty difficult to climb out of that comfort zone...really... i've found myself less motivated to study this sem... a bad sigh... perhaps becasue of the lack of stress... and when i do study... i realise another thing... i think my mindset has changed so much that i find it hard to get into an 'applied math' mindset... haha i guess its a bit funny to even mention this... i mean what could possibly be the difference between applied and "not-applied" math? i assure the difference is quite large... whilst reading the lecture notes... i realised one thing... alot of things are taken for granted... why certain things are the way they are and alot of stuff is given as a fact... kind of like the a levels if u will... except with material of greater complexity... i grew very frustrated with the incompleteness of the way things were presented and overwhelmed by my instinct to try and find out how and y certain things were the way they were... i guess it took me a while before i eventually got the results i wanted and then i realised yet another thing... i could very well derive almost the exact same thing my applied math classmates would memorise and could gather alot of abstract data from what it mean... however... being an applied module... i found it really difficult to re-intepret these bits of information into really useful data... my frends on the other hand could do it without batting an eyelid... haha... i guess to me... it's quite uncommon to have a physical meaning to the math that i have been doing for so long... and now i'm stuck in a place where i really do have to know wat all the symbols i can churn out so easily actually means in reality... i realise i'm very used to finding relationships between pieces of data and analysing them as they are (just bits of data)... which sadly in this course.. i feel... is not really sufficient...
i guess the same applies to everything else... playing tennis with my mum is an interesting as well... i recently tried to change my grip from an continental grip to an extreme western grip... just for the sake fo trying it out... after like the first 5 shots i hit went straight into the net... my mum immediately shouted "YOUR GRIP!!"... and i yelled back "I'm trying a new one!!"... then another few loose shots here and there and she shouted again... "It's obviously not working..."... to her i guess... trying meant hitting a few shots... if it din work... it would be best to return to what was working relatively well before... kind of like sticking ur toe into the pool to test the temperature of the water in a swimming pool before deciding to jump in or not...
i persevered with the grip... much to the displeasure of my mum... haha but to me it was really testing my boundaries... and trying new things... getting out of what ur used to... ur comfort zone... haha... i mean my mum bought a new racket cos her old ones wearing out... haha she hit abt 5 balls with the new one and ran to her back to change to her old one... haha i of course.. chided her for that... i mean if u dun make an effort to get used to something... u'll never...
of course... truth me told... i'm not the adventurous kind as well... there are things and boundaries i dun want to push... haha but i guess its really finding that balance... haha to be shrewd and yet daring... people have often commented about how singaporeans are too happy to stay in their comfort zones... this of course led to the entire thing abt creativity and entrepreneurship etc etc... so at least pple ahve started to notice that we really do need to push our boundaries in order to see improvements... on the other hand... one could aslo say that if the machine is not broken then dun try to fix it... haha i mean if life's good the way it is... sometimes i really makes no sense to risk it by tweaking with something... but i guess balance really is the key word... haha
anyway i recalled what i wanted to talk about... frommers... but i'll talk abt that tmr then... haha
watched a bit of tennis today and my my... haha my admiration for santoro has jumped up a few notches yet again... haha... he was amazing today... really creating so manynice angles which the bryan brothers couldnt even get to... and the thing is... his shot really do not pack any puch at all... but its his vision and control of his racket that enables him to put the ball in a position that ultimately wins him the point... haha i salute him... haha
llodra and santoro... JB tried to imitate them saying something like "if you heet zee balle to zee buckhaand zen i vill cRoss to zee left..."
oh well.. back to studying... haha gotta make up for all those skipped lectures... haha
{10:17 PM}
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